the gap between hannah arendt and me

I'd just like to say that I was soooooooooo excited when I saw what Hannah Arendt's "The Gap Between Past and Future" was about. I think about time and space and location and all that stuff a lot. So far, no success understanding it. So I was really psyched that this brilliant woman was thinking about the same stuff I was and that I could read it and maybe it would help me out. Yeah. Not so much. She's talking more about events and how they affect people than time and space as physical things. Which really disappoints me. Besides which, her preface and all the different topics contained in it make some sense in relation to each other, but only if you have a lot of background on all of it and spend several hours thinking about it and talk to anyone and everyone nearby about what you think it means and what they think it means. And it's like when you understand something but barely, so if you don't concentrate hard enough you forget what it means, and if you think too hard you also forget what it means. Hannah Arendt is within my grasp, but barely. I'll persevere, if for no other reason than I have an essay due on this tomorrow, but serially. I'm one of the best people I know of for abstract thought and theory, not trying to be all self-absorbed and full of myself or whatever, but it's true. And this has taken many many hours out of my day to just see how French Resistance, Nazi Germany, Kafka's parables, political and metaphysical theory and PHYSICS all fit together. And now I have to DRAW MY OWN CONCLUSIONS?? and write a COMPREHENSIBLE ESSAY?? Poem Ruiner, you're killing me.
--Little Red