Crime and Punishment made me cry

So finals were yesterday for the activity that takes up all of my free time, I won't name it for the sake of anonimity but I'm sure you all know what it is. Anyways, we got a silver rather than bronze medal for the first time in 7 years for our school, so we were all excited and I cried, and then I realized that I would never share the field with these people again and they're like family to me, so I cried all the way off the field and to the bus, and the entire ride home. There was seriously about a 5 minute interval on the hour plus way home that I was not crying. I even made THREE BOYS cry because I was crying so much. So after this crazy emotional night, I woke up this morning and tried to read Crime and Punishment. And that's when I read about this dream where a poor innocent horse is being whipped and has to try to drag a ton of fat people around on a cart and when she can't, her owner starts bludgeoning her with a crowbar. So that made me cry all over again. I hate this book.
Little Red